SHAYNA FERNANDO - MAGIC MAKER & CHANGE CREATOR
ACCESS CONSCIOUSNESS CERTIFIED BARS FACILITATOR AND WHAT ELSE IS POSSIBLE?
In this 10 seconds my reality is great....and my gratitude, greater. I have a beautiful circle of people around me, gently shaking the world with their magic. Inspiring me. Admiring me. Listening to me. Creating with me. Just BEing with me...here for me...and kicking me up the bum when I need it.
In February last year, I lost my little sister. Just 22 years old, she took her own life. It was the first funeral I’d ever been to, and the hardest day of my life so far. I was so sure I'd failed, like I should have protected her…like I could have protected her…determined to fix things. Now, I vowed to protect everyone else. I wanted to do things right. ‘Be strong. Keep busy.’ It worked until it didn’t. I taught until I couldn’t, and then my whole world started to crumble.
I tried so hard to understand a choice that wasn’t mine… Until suddenly, it WAS mine. It was me. I spent 7 days in hospital, the scariest week of my life. I wasn’t sure of anything. I didn’t have the answers. No one had the answers.
Without words, I asked a question. What would it take? What else was possible?
It’s been a little over a year now and some days I forget. I forget that I can’t call her. I forget that she can’t visit. Some days I forget that there are things I wish i’d done.
Then some days, I remember it all. Some days I miss her and ask what could have been? If I could have…would have… …If I had…
I never thought I’d find myself in that space. Then I did, and I thought I’d never find my way out. But I did, and I’m here, because I chose something else. I didn’t know what it would look like, but whatever it took I was willing to choose it, because somewhere, I knew something else was possible.
I had my bars run. I had no idea what that meant. Then space. A gift. Wrapped in the loving arms of beautiful people i couldn’t have dreamed up if i’d tried. Now there’s more. Light. Bare feet and shady trees. Kitten cuddles and two rows of teeth.
I resigned from my job as a high school teacher. Now I'm doing what I love every day. Every 10 seconds, I'm choosing ease joy & glory - a crazy possibility, that all began with a question.
What else is possible for your life and living? What miracles are you refusing, with the 'same old same old' you keep choosing? Are you ready to shake things up? BE the magic in your world!
It's just a choice...
I'm here! I see you! What else is possible?